One thing that I've always struggled with is striving for perfection. Whether it is school, work, or personal relationships, I feel like things should be ideal and I usually beat myself up when I screw up or they don't go as planned.
The worst part is my relationship with Matt. Up until this past year, I've struggled with things not going just perfectly. I imagined a fairy tale romance and was often disappointed when I was let down. It's taken much work and a great amount of praying, but I've finally realized that there is no such thing as perfect. Every couple argues and has disagreements. We certainly have our fair share of arguments but we've grown and can have a discussion instead of a knock-down drag-out fight. We can spend time explaining our feelings and trying to understand eachother instead of being angry and holding a grudge. Even when things don't end up my way, I always feel much better after we've discussed our disagreements.
I think that it's important to realize that everything won't always be pleasant, but as long as the good times outnumber the bad, it's all worth it. It's always refreshing to hear about other women's lives and to know that I'm not the only one who doesn't have a perfect fairy tale life.
I will always be a work in progress and still have my immature outbursts but I'm realizing that "life can be 'perfect' even though things don't go perfectly".
I know this post isn't too cheery but it's just something that's been on my mind