Tuesday, May 5, 2009

What's In A Name?

When I started writing this blog at the end of January my life was somewhat in a frenzy.

I had been stressing for the past eight months about making A's in my ranking classes to get into nursing school for the Fall 09 semester. If I made all A's I'd have no worries about being one of the 75 applicants accepted into the extremely competitive program. Not being accepted and having to wait an additional year before starting would have been devastating.

I had just finished my Introduction to Logic class elective requirement which was a semester of stressful hell because I had to learn a new way to 'think' and I was totally unfamiliar with any philosophy courses. Not to mention, I also finished Anatomy and Physiology which was pretty intense too.

I had been late on three payments, mine and Matt's rent and two credit card bills. It wasn't because I didn't have the money, it was in the checking account. I just completely forgot about the statements and didn't pay them. This is soo not me, I'm usually much more punctual about money. Needless to say, I was extremely disappointed in myself for dropping the ball and for having to pay $60 in late fees when money was already tight.

Matt and I had some previous issues arise at that time too and the fighting and stress associated with them surfaced again.

It really felt like I was hanging by a thread, barely getting along.

Things seem to be a one-eighty now.

I'm very happy.

I'm satisfied, calm and excited that I reached my goal for my grades and I'm sure beyond a shadow of a doubt that I'll be starting nursing school next fall. Acceptance letters go out in two weeks so I'll post the results then.

Not only did I pass Logic with an A, but I'm the tutor for it now. It's a job that allows me to get study and homework time in. I also like to help people so it's good for doing that and I've made some great new friends as well. It's really been a blessing in disguise because I was really nervous at first that I either would hate tutoring or would suck at it.

I'm a very forgetful person but I've been more organized and, thankfully, haven't dropped the ball on anything major.

Now that this semester is wrapping up, I have to say it's been one of my best. I'm content more than ever because I know I'm headed in the career path that I'm meant to do. I loved having my first college art course and exploring my creative side that I've neglected.

This semester went by faster than any other but I feel like I've really grown. I've made new friends. Seriously, the first year Matt and I lived in our apartment we only had guests over one time and that was his sister and her fiance. Now I've got a new best friend that I talk to or hang out with daily and many other new friendships that I know will grow stronger.

Matt and mine's relationship is going strong. We celebrated our six year anniversary this past Saturday. Wow, six years! It doesn't seem like it's been that long. I don't really think about the past when he wasn't around. It's like we've always been together.

I didn't expect it to be this way, but this blog has been a great way for me to look back and realize what I've accomplished and endured the past few months.

I don't think I'll change the name of my blog yet, because I'm really not sure what to change it to. I guess it serves as a reminder that difficult and stressful times are common, but they do pass.

This is my 49th post! Because I just love giveaways, there will be a new giveaway for my 50th post later this week. Here's a little hint (probably quite obvious, but oh well)

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. Becca . said...

Yay! Congrats on almost 50! I love looking back over my blog as well sometimes. So many things that I appreciate being able to read, that I'd probably have forgotten.

I, too, am very forgetful. It's something I'm working on. Looks like I've found a soul sista in that department! :) Glad you're doing so well, Kebi!

Tara said...

My post got too long today, but I'll play tag tomorrow! I don't actually know you, but your post really touched me. I'm so weirdly proud of you! I have two cousins that are nurses. Both were in OKC hospitals during the bombing of the federal building. They waited and waited for the second round of injured, and no one came. They are such heros in my mind with what they deal with on a daily basis.(one is as ER nurse and the other ICU) It is an honored career, and I love Oklahoma! I was born there and have so much family and connection to the place--if you ever get to CO, please let me know!

Jon and Steph said...

How exciting that you have come this far! and with flying colors as it seems. Well done on your class and making an A! That is so exciting that you are going to start nursing school soon, and even more exciting that it is something that you know you were meant to do! Way to go girl!

Congrats on the 49th post!

Allison said...

Glad things are calming down :)

Can't wait to see what your #50 giveaway will be ;)